reflections

i have to rip myself off the parents' perspective of "you're still a child". i'm almost 2 years to 30, so that makes me a young adult.

Being a young adult, although living with parents, is STILL mentally independant.
Even though i am unattached, that doesn't mean i am immature n be tied to parents' strings = "you're still a child".

Society, by majority, repels me bcos i'm naturally more of a non-conformist, not that i want or choose to be, it's that i'm born to be.

Thus the realisation of the phrase i vaguely remember n adapt "in the world but belong not to the world (for exact reference : Jesus' Prayer to Abba Father in the Gospel according to St.John)"

i feel torn : Heaven awaits but God still Wants me to accomplish my journey on earth.

seriously i dunno what i should do beyond, but concentrating on wat's under my nose, to me, it's better than worrying of not being able to see wat's in front of me

and to see a bigger picture, that i'm not alone, my problems are similar n wat i do in my Ministries are similar to the people in this world, especially in Ministries, we'r all different parts but belonging to one Body (exact reference fr. one of St.Paul's) of Christ. In this i find comfort.

But now, i must concentrate on wat must be done in my life n opening up to Listening to God. Until the paths are straightened n narrowed, i cannot be what i never thought i can never be.